We all look for something to change with the upcoming New Year. We dont necessarily know what that change will be but we all look to that new year as a chance to begin again, to refresh and let what ever was wrong, disapointments, hurts, failures all become but a distant memory.
Mine was no different, but at the same time with my epilepsy and other disorders I felt how can anything possibly come that would change what my life is now. I admit I deal with a fear of leaving my apartment and socially interacting with people in RL. I looked around my tiny studio apartment and felt a well of depression just weighing me down. All I wanted to do was curl up and hide in my bed.
That was when something happened to once again give me faith in the future and a small burst of hope blossomed within me causing me to once again smile. I received a call from a apartment complex that I had applied to this past August. They told me that they in fact did have a one bedroom apartment come available and I was next on the list. I felt like breaking down and crying. This small thing was in fact the best christmas gift I had been given in a very long time. I know it may seem silly but to live in a one room apartment with thin walls that you can hear your neighbors fighting at any hour of the day it is a goddess send.
So I promptly took down all the information I needed and began the process of gathering the paperwork they needed for Section 8. Of course they wished for something signed by my doctor stating i was in fact disabled. I was a big confused I mean first they ask for my SSI paperwork acknowledging my disabilty but this is not enough? I just nodded and said no problem. Then they tell me that they need the doctor to state i should have a companion pet if i wish to have a pet. I was like huh? I need a doctors note to have a cat. I laughed at the ridiculousness of the request but said fine and went about gathering all the info. Now I am just playing the waiting game as each day ticks by and i start to pack up this studio which feels little more then a closet!!
So here is to 2011!